yep, i'm very sick
need to be healthy wednesday!!
shit!

she fell asleep mid-cry today :(
and now i'm sick, too!

ILs gone
holiday lights before dinner
tomorrow, parents leave
bummer

major meltdowns
but surrounded by love

not a bad day

santa came!
must've been good

parents coming tomorrow
so awesome!

company here
she's better, tho not much
excited about tomorrow!!!

home
sick baby
endless snuggles are awesome
although heartbreaking
praying

daycare called... she's got a low temp
knew it! crap

still cranking
something is up
not sure what
poor baby

the miss is cranky
super cranky
on my last nerve

at work
shouldn't be
lots to do, wrap, bake...

WEEKEND!!

our xmas cards suck
sorry, friends/family

fuck you walmart!!

crazy busy
new jobs posted

applying

good luck to me!

no phone today - ugh
how sad to depend on technology

am really starting to hate kodak
stupid lame card templates

i wanted to do nothing today
so i did
oops

her response to christmas-y things:
"oooo pretty"

love love her!!

thank fucking god it is friday
that is all
phew!

clean(er) house
lots of work
tons of pictures to peruse

hmmmm, that went well
(not that i'm not still wigging)

sent that email today
now i wait, worry, and wig

at work for 9 hours
did endless amount of nothing

my resolve is strong again
very strong!

hope it lasts

mom's group made pizzas
YUM

but... i hate asshole parents

he's begging me to consider it
so i am.
considerably!!

home, but sick

planned so much!
did so little!!

bummer

tree is up
my mood, too

crank the xmas music!!

planned to run
didn't get to

too busy

i'm annoyed

at work
itching to get home...

... to decorate!

24 days!!!

the miss is a total chatterbox
it's too stinking cute :)

shopped w/ sister yesterday - fun!
more drinking tonight - oh no!!

4 drinks and i'm drunk
i'm officially old, aren't i?

thankful for...

mr.
dog
miss
family
friends
job
love

everything!

short day
much to do
crap

but... to NY tonight!

cut the mr.'s hair short
really really short
mama like!!!

tonight
laying in my arms
she asked for...

milk!

(sniff)

new fantabulous jammies
spent all day in them
lazy sunday

3 nights in a row
a very (very) good thing

feel like dancing
i'm loved
by a pretty wonderful boy

no sleep :(
pink braces :)
shiny gus :)
talk with mr..... hopefully :)

misplaced @ morning meeting
midday mexican/margarita
mad @ mr.

that new love?
a store: learning how
me: yearning now!!!

she said, "good morning, buddy!"
officially the cutest thing ever

didn't nurse at all yesterday
1st time since her birth :(

yesterday didn't happen
sucky

today:
made cookies
found new love

networking at the white house
should be interesting... i hope!

a blah day
full of work
and idiots
and yawning!

crazy day
much information
i am seriously in the know!

home
alone
not enjoying it

should have kept her home

i suck at keeping up with this
will try harder

leaving home again
always sucks

back in three weeks, though ;)

my hair?
gone!
well, it's crazy short

freaking love it!!!

20 months today
haven't stopped smiling
love her to pieces

ginormous spreadsheet is done
yippeeeeee

am excited about the weekend

1 step forward
5 steps back

yes on 8?!?!

BULLSHIT!

voted today
first time ever
and tonight?
proud and elated!!

performance evaluation went well
crazily well
they freaking love me

best friend reconnected
so needed. so good.
love you, b!

gorgeous day
exercised with girlfriend
park with family
homemade pizzas!!

missing people... things...
mostly feelings
wish the answers were easier

home working
+
new hvac
=
annoyed me,
sad wallet

productive day
but need to stop snacking
all
day
long

submitting resume tomorrow
more nervous than necessary
i neeeeeeeeed this!!

email from a friend
kept me up all night
stressing

that last entry
was brought to you
by the miss

gggggggggggg ,,fkd jnjfnngfj u hhhhhhggggggggggggggggggggggggsssssssssss vvvvvvvbb bbnnn ndz g6555554 u

hate:
arguments with no resolution

love:
wearing jeans to work

breakfast with miss
exhilarating workout
loooooooong hot bath
purkle teeth!!!

okay...
deep breath
shimmy shake
head up
do it right

ring around the rosey is totally fun.
try it today!

monday monday monday
fuck you, monday
that's all for today.

it's out there
but being ignored
hmmmm....
what to do...

t said exactly what i said a year ago.
duh.

it's friday
i'm not thanking anyone
want to hide, instead

can't get into halloween
want to, but just can't.
help!

realization:
miss is as amazing as we'll let her be.

a much better day
however, i'm back in spreadsheet hell

not a fun day at all
sorry, miss and mr.

longest ride home ever
poor miss was NOT having it!

hi-lanes
hollenbeck's
little italy
evening with family
fantabulous day!!

leaving early
do not want to rush tonight
going home!!!!

home working
lunch with mr.
boring webinar
miss in pain :(

spreadsheet induced coma
massage is needed
mr. - warm those hands!!

miss her today
not sure why
oh yeah,
she rocks!!

i am so flippity blipping sick of these glooping spreadsheets!!!

logged 4 miles
she napped 2 hours
me?
none!
dammit!

miss made most disgusting discovery ever!!
we'll never recover.

BLAHHHHH!!!!!

more craziness at work
no clue what it means, though

working
+ home
-----------
spreadsheets!
dancing
cleaning
spreadsheets!!
running
brushing (gus)
SPREADSHEETS!!!

fun stuff:
laughing in the pouring rain,
with your toddler.

tonight:
dinner with friends

(who i met on the internet)

diet starts in two days.
i am pigging out.

oink!

today's lesson:

$7.47 = "tons of money"

O
M
G

awesome morning sale
mental note:
bring laundry basket next time!

eagle green.
teeth look awesome.
will be done even sooner!

orthodontist today
big decision: color?!?!

otherwise feeling serene
and satisfied

starving
soup didn't cut it

office is organized and empty

qualified for, dismissed from, a study
still made $100
woo!!!

i'm busier than i should be
and that is okay

today's word...

consideration:
thoughtful or sympathetic regard or respect

please?

shopping for miss is always fun
especially with awesome deals!!

are you kidding me with this shit?
no?
well, fuck!

today's lesson:
if you fuck up, own up.

seriously, people!

done...

did it
on time
no errors
emotionally spent


woo!!!

4am alarm
body said "ummmm, no!"
today's the day!
crap.

to work at 5a
likely home at 6p
almost over!!

laundry, lounging, laughing

sorting through old photos,
hence the laughing ;)

good day...
3 hour walk
3 hour work
chocolate shake

love fest is over
short day
tons of work
grrrrrrrr

i love his...
... excitability
... nuzzles
... fives
... tenderness
... grey
... support
... friendship

i love her...
... laugh
... curls
... kisses
... spirit
... snuggles
... words
... feet

i love his...
... smile
... hugs
... determination
... laughter
... warmth
... perseverance
... calves ;)

11 days to get it done.
i will do it!!

she's eighteen (months) today.
wow, every day.
happy half, miss!!

lost a friend.
not sure why.
it hurts.

very unsettled.

aquarium today.
family, fishies, food, fun.
great pictures.
awesome memories.

4 years ago,

we said i do.

i still do.

shit.
15 pounds?
make it 25.
starting october 1st.
thanks.

the scale is no longer my friend
goal: 15 pounds

friends are awesome,
but totally confusing.
especially my best one!

when she talks herself to sleep...
i listen,
and melt.

moms group today.
made a new friend.
from home! crazy!

nothing to say.
too busy working.
and making progress.

yay!!!

busting ass to finish early.
for her, i'm motivated again.

she's leaving.
i'm terrified.
sick. scared.
and updating my resume.

forgot to update...
totally LOVE hummus!
a really (really) lot!!

uh oh.

monday,
sucky.

more work,
suckier.

another period,
suckiest.

lazy nothing day.
missed a call.
worried about a friend.

big sale.
hour-long line.
no carrier.
i'm an idiot!!

daycare closed.
working from home.
she slept for 2 hours :(

maybe 10 words isn't quite enough.
should i say more?

sex is good.
i need more.
must work on that.

work review in 5.
headache from hell.
(or from donuts)

work insanity but leaving early.
family visiting.
pizza tonight.
yay!!

rough day.
teething miss.
i want a cold beer.
now.

trader joes rocks.
going to try hummus.
wish me luck!

now it begins...
one post a day!
should be interesting.

blue bands this time.
feeling silly.
silly, but still stoked!

awesome vacation.
miss them already.
trying to make new friends.

pink on my braces.
i love it.
teeth are MOVING!!

fabulous weekend.
zoo. library. walks.
lost 2 pounds.
woo hoo!

where is home for you?
soon it will be here.

i am now going to be happy.
and productive.
dammit.

no motivation today.
addicted to scrabulous.
but boss just called...

1 down - 155 to go.
straight teeth here i come!!

mr. cheered me up.
miss wiped out.
blood!
she's okay.

not able to smile today.
it just isn't possible.
fuck.

fathers' day.
i know some good ones!
the mr., too!

braces still okay.
can't stop smiling.
miss laughed at me.

just got braces!
i love them.
mc'ds, here i come!!

starting anew.
might not last.
could implode.
we shall see!