my mood:
great
even with no sleep

imagine that!
(yawn)

gorgeous day
wasted

at least i swung on my porch!

slept in
whined
played
danced
cleaned
drank (each meal)
smiled :)

holy shit
doesn't explain
the pain

exploding

death is near

ortho hell
holy shit

miss named the baby "haha"
awesome!

in a funk
can't get out
but reeeaaallllllly need to

boring day
nothing to say
i kind of hate everything

interesting day
emails
phone calls
chaos
a song
memories flooding

uploading pics
lots
finally

baby d?
please kick harder!

happy halloween
trick or treating fun
she's a pro already!

school party
sad ladybug
sad me

talk tonight was odd

class is over
yay!
and tomorrow?
i shall play!
YAY

today is wednesday
today is wednesday
all day long!
ugh.

nailed my presentation
thank goodness
though now class is dragging

naughty today
but
"i will listen at home, mommy"
ha!

it was good
silly and fun
beautiful day
hooray hooray!

whining, crying and craziness
oh my!!
please let tomorrow rock

stressing about monday
way more than i need to be

potty trained in under a week
is that even possible?

haven't been this tired
in years
or maybe
last week
;)

awesome instructor
not as long presentation
so far
so good

class starts tomorrow
hope i learn lots
(and stay awake)

thankful for
acrobatic babies
snuggly toddlers
and
spazzy dogs, too

rainy
cold

but...

felt movement!

beautiful
wonderful
fabulous
movement

yipppeeeeee!!!

friday breakfast:
chocolate milk
cookie dough

sorry, baby

(not really)

skipped work

cleaned
spent time alone
instead

she wore underwears!!

strong heartbeat
almost hoping for two
crazier things have happened

work:
quiet
unproductive

play:
highest score ever

me:
easily amused

home with miss
feeling blah
anti-parenting
guilt? plenty!
ugh

pukey lunch
silly dinner
same place
bye, home
miss you!

rainy football morning
beautiful fall day
i love new york!!

wasted day
in car service department
with no book

crap

vacation already
though starts tomorrow

i need these four days!!

home today
working!

shiny gus
full belly
tired me
yawn!!!

puttered
sputtered

hellacious bedtime
wish we had a hot tub

groggy morning
wish we were home
all 5 of us :(

no putt-putt
park instead
our little monkey

so tired!!

gun powder
giggles
bottomless belly
nap in the shade
nice!

i used to love a rollercoaster
now?
not so much

another bonus
la dee dah

knotty stomach
achey foot
blah

so frustrated
why is it so hard?
WHY?

frickety frack

organizing
learning
reading
smiling
planning
announcing

a pretty good day

heater at feet
hot soup in belly
sweater on

freezing

better
slightly
dreading tomorrow
need a day off
by myself

the notebook kills me
bad bad night

but welcome maf!!

no nap/pillow
maybe tonight?

quiet work day
happy friday!

short day
nap
braces (color?)
clean the kitchen!!
new pillow!

let me feel
how i feel
please

i'm allowed
dammit

made a cake
want to eat it
all
by
myself

today shall suck
but i WILL get it all done!

she let me sleep in
she does most sundays
awesome

very good day
minus the crying :(
retail therapy helped some

so...
i screwed up
majorly

thankful they can't fire me

plans today:
eat
work
eat
work
work
eat
play
sleep

our very own dwight
this makes me smile
much needed!!

trying to meet the deadline that moved up
not fun

icky grumpy day
then the worst phone call EVER
shocked!!

haven't forgotten you
strong little miracle

please bear with me

long tired day
not bad
not good
just.... a day

rest peacefully
my child

forever loved
missed
in my heart

feeling zen today
oddly

this is the day...
be glad

tomorrow is thursday
today is pointless

one more stinking day!!!

got the big raise
and don't even care!

c'mon thursday!!!

need to turn brain off
but how?

i'm a wreck.

oh how i missed her
"let's hurry home!!"
blissful reunion <3

my brother:
"don't worry.
it's a piece of cake."

really?!?!

happy 5th, m'dear
lovin' the life we're livin'
and you ;)

nothing accomplished today
mind is reeling
apprehensively elated and terrified

so
umm
i was right

now i'm scared
but hopeful!!

4am
perfect miss hug

welcome september
i'm ready
bring it!

going to be a long one
yawning already
uh oh!

lots of potty use
(and m&ms)
crap for dinner
ugh :(

slept until 9
whoa

rings are wrong
so so wrong!
:(

the miss is pure awesomeness
and today is friday
woo!!

new camera arrived
so far i'm undecided
weekend will tell!

"sit on your vagina"
is hilarious from 2 year olds!

another bonus
huge
so thankful
so awesome (me)
woo hoo!!!

a day
of impossible feats
not prepared
and don't care!

another weekend ends
with backyard family fun
(and sprinkler hose)

awoke early
feeling fabulous

3 hours later
nap time, please!!

laugh with me
i'm back
ha!

also

i'm tired
overworked

forget it
this is hard
i give up

(for now)

stupid day spent mostly annoyed
will end with looooooong walk

lazy day spent mostly reading
ended with LIFE with mr.

i'm back in the saddle
again
delighted to look forward

awesome fathers:
have one
married one

double lucky me, indeed!!

scored while shopping
laughed while home
wore the miss out!!

protest plot thickens
what a cluster #^@%

thankful for friends!!!

last night delightful
productive day
rain stopped
great run
woo!

rough bedtime
feel guilty
but no wakings
(her, at least)

nope
not losing weight
but thanks for noticing the inches!!

searching for motivation
an imminent raise, perhaps?
surely, that'll work!

more errands
long nap
dinner at ikea
ran extra mile!!

shopping
dinner at park
log rolls
good day
want more

not much sleep happened
but definite progress did
am hopeful!!

purple room done
so neat

operation family sleep
begins tonight!

ran the entire loop
proud of me
i'm a runner!!

wow
i caught up
mostly, anyway
sometimes i'm pretty awesome

behind at work again
going full force tomorrow
shut in!!

room looking awesome
can't wait to finish
hope she loves!!

overslept
pigged out
painted
ran around playground
shopped
ran
zonked

today has blown up in my face
a protest? nooooooooo!!!!!!

made desserts
didn't work out
feel guilty
that's something new!!

endurance is returning
oh how good it feels to run

yep - they hate me

order feels nice, though
missed it

june 1st
new rules
they'll hate me
i don't care

lazy ass day
napped with miss
park
chugged last beer!!

slept in
yard work
play date

didn't run
should have

short friday
busy afternoon
junk for dinner?
i hope so!! ;)

home early
chinese dinner
dancing with miss
chilling on couch

new rule:
three o'clock
always

miss time is happy time

not as bad as i thought
but still pretty sucky

eating junk all day
and i don't care

dreading tomorrow :(

i miss walking everywhere
for ice cream, especially
mmmmmmmmm flurries!!

hair chopped
foot inked
belly filled
liver destructed

sweet day

pretty feets
shortened day
wad of cash
on our way!!

allergies have won
entire face is leaking
calling in help!!

getting excited about saturday
seeing family
and friends
(at friends!!)

feel like a runner again
and also... myself
thanks, babe!!

today's standard answer:
i don't care, sorry

(no i'm not)

more laundry was done today than should ever be allowed

virginia
garbage (food)
rocks (thrown)
tired/sick girl
left early :(

woke late
worked
talked
ate
ran
frozen treats
fell asleep

home
sick kid
having a blast anyway
man, she's fun

running tonight
wish i were right now
go legs go

sad
tired
frustrated

can't say yes today
please stop asking!

it changes today
right now

won't go 4 for 4

"happy mothers day"
kiss kiss

thanks, miss
i love you

thought it was a good day
guess i was wrong

worked for free today
total bullshit

i need this weekend!!!

slightly better
making headway

and home all afternoon
so nice!

breathe in
out

it's doable
possible

i can
must
will

can't
possibly
ever
get
this
work
done

oh
my
god

6 more days
to freedom
look out, mr.

so geeked!

built-a-frog today
pretty neat

we also slept
lots

those donuts?
ate 9 of them

sadly, i want more!

brought donuts
not sharing them
i'm wallowing and pissy

beware

conference went well
end of day did not
stupid tears

cheap (delicious) ice cream
for dinner
parents of the year!!

got a bonus
woo!
things are official now
and scary

the chaos at work
has really begun

bring it on!!

picture day
hammed it up
so stinking cute
love her!

we lost her
two minutes
an eternity
what's the difference?

home all day
ice cream breakfast
didn't shred
ran, instead

seeing death sucks
a lot
trying to find happy place

busy day
file must be perfect
i think it is

1 AND 2
i rock
(and will be one soon)

it worked! we slept! hooray!
(there's nothing else to say)

napless day
went okay

new room/bed

hope it works!

perfect day:
slept in
played/ran outside
beer!
ice cream!!

old boss didn't come through
crap

but... it's friday
phew!

home
productive

purple chain pain

shred is better
fabulous ouch!

shredded last night
not sore today
lame
29 more days!

why can't she sleep?
what the hell is wrong?
YAWWWWWWN!!!

left work crying
furious

reconnected
after almost 5 years

yay!!

home
easter festivities
pizza lunch!!
picture overload
bed early? hoping!!

fanfreakingtabulous day
but over quickly

friends live too far away :(

friday! woo!
crazy day
long drive to virgina
midnight party!!

our first dinner
7 years ago today

love you, babe!!

in early
out late

too busy
to see straight

ugh

sunny
but quite chilly

thank goodness for jackets and heaters

happy 30th friend!!

good to get back
never say that!

slept in
way in

annoyed
with myself
more than others

stood up
bummed

hated twilight

ate or napped
all
day

ny tonight
decision needed

work has settled
brain has not!

lounged
worked
real lunch
napped!!

er finale
one tissue
lame

happy 2nd birthday, gramma
(in heaven)
miss you
love you

second
better still
but peanuts?!

work
however
sucked a nut

first tour
definitely better
but nearly empty bookshelf?
not acceptable

had enough
lost control

regained it

bath time miss bliss

morning bargains
awesome

drizzly fun
awesomer

friends - old, new
awesomest

in office together
too much fun

but still doing work!!

her last day
elated
infuriated
disappointed
stressed

insanely busy

AAAHHHHHH!!!!

new favorite quote:

"if you are confident,
you are beautiful."

daycare search begins
bright beginnings?
psh.
more like blight beginnings.

miss in new room
her name? spelled wrong!
e.v.e.r.y.w.h.e.r.e!!!

assholes

dupont dinner
fun
needed
the miss was a total showoff!

slept until 10
holy $@%!
was fabulous
thanks, mr.!!
((hugs))

agenda?

check
no
check
check
no

family time instead - yay!!

agenda:
review board
shopping
ortho
miss fun
girls' night out!!

busiest, craziest day ever
no shower
blisters
no tp
wtf?

started
settled
set up
psyched
SWAMPED!

so super satisfied

squeeeeeeee!!!

first day on new job


but not really
maybe tomorrow

aquarium: fun
get together: chaos
end result: bummed out happiness

blah day
awesome night
can't wait for tomorrow!!
and thursday!!!

me, mr., miss...
all wigged out

sorry
so very sorry!

huge
with a windowed wall
11th floor paradise
woo hooo!!!!

boss is irrational mess
dying to get new one
monday!!!

at work
physically leaving early
but have really left already

potty deposit made - woo!
otherwise a long, tiring, boring day

party #2
baby g
miss hammed it up
great day!

she's two - and awesome
fun party for 5
met nephew :)

birthday eve
arby's for lunch - yum
dinner out - no vegetables?!?!

heading home tonight
families
friends
birthday parties
new babies!!!
YAY!

awesome news today
very fabulous week

life: oh so wonderful!

it was announced
people gasped, applauded

top of the world!

we got snow - woo hoo!!
got bundled...
she cried - boooo!!!

do they make sticker books anymore??
can't freaking find one!!

it's mine!!!
elated and terrified
bigger than expected
majorly prepping!

lent, day 3
don't miss it

getting caught up elsewhere!

officially the worst day ever
from start to stupid finish!

friend made a good point at lunch
feeling hopeful, optimistic!

home sick
in bed until 1
answered work emails! ugh!

2 weeks today
she doesn't ask anymore
that was easy!!

what i hate about myself:
i procrastinate every.single.time.

motivation level has skyrocketed
i want this so fucking bad!!!

7 days, big bed
7 days, sleep... what's that?

praying!

no milk, either
it's too easy
not even one tear!

happy to rest her head on my breast
i'm amazed!

naptime was bittersweet today
i'm pissed i forgot the camera

gathering last month's notes...

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